| | HarumphHere I am in front of my computer. It's once again been a while since I've sat down to put some thoughts down. Anyways, since I've begun training, they've been drilling my head with all sorts of different information coming from all different directions. Which is (not because they made me say this) pretty useful actually being sheltered from the real world and the comings and goings of the movers and shakers of the country. So all in all, I think no matter what, I definitely have something positive to take away from this program.
Note: I've only been in the program for 2 weeks. I hate it already but I'm trying to see the silver lining here so give me a break.
One thing's for sure though, as little of a social life I had prior to work, it's almost completely gone out the window now. There's so many things I don't know and have to delve deeper because this ignorance thing just bothers me tremendously. Perhaps my priorities are attempting to balance themselves out and see who comes out 'top dog'. Probably too wrapped up in my 'work' related stuff to realize what goes on in the 'real world' now. The real world being my friends and things that are happening to them. At any rate, some sacrifices have to be made I guess.
In regard to bobbys post about the ...um....for lack of a better word 'formality' among friends, it only exists when we're speaking to a bunch of weirdos. Perhaps it's due to a lack of social skills or the unfamiliarity of being with this particular bunch of people. Or maybe it's just the bloody idea going on in some peoples heads and maybe they just live on a completely different planet that the rest of us can't comprehend. Yes, there are times which call for proper form and decorum but there are times when you're just allowed to just let go and seriously, you can drop the damn act and be your bloody self.
Temper hasn't been particularly good lately. Stress is slightly getting to me. I still have no idea where I want to be in my particular line of employment, although there are many departments which have indeed caught my interest.
My short views on some things which have been on my mind: poison pen letters, blogging and sites with malicious on purposelyfully misleading intent. Yes, there should be some form of monitoring of freelance/vigilante service out there to diffuse the situation or even bring to light the situation. Do we need higher authority to step up? Haven't we already got so much on our plate? Jeez, the fundamental problems are there and haven't been thoroughly addressed and here we are worrying about something that (has deep lying repercussions I admit) but there's a bigger picture to worry about.
Efficiency and HPC: There's a total different type of culture being preached and although investing in people is a sure-fire way to ensure succession but there has to be a limit or some form of control that ensures there isn't any burning out.
Motivational talks: I'm sorry but I've always been a sceptic to these forms of talks/groups/events. Perhaps that's why I find it so hard to change as a person and move towards self-improvement. But I feel that it's not so much what nonsense you can chuck into my head, but more the deep shitness of my current situation or the coming situation that will force me to evolve and adapt.
On the bloody ridiculous amounts of abbreviations there are: It's just stoopid.
On my lack of time to game: My password has been changed and I've been unable to log in. I can't even kill a few damn dragons or flying stuff. Urgh. Most annoyed.
On office politics: Reputation, behaviour and character is so so so bloody important. It's so difficult to please all the right people while trying to move up the career ladder. Stepping on too many peoples toes can only lead you towards a pitfall right? Why is it then that some these 'bastards' get so far in life then? It's not entirely fair now is it?
On reserving judgment: I really need to keep my mouth shut sometimes. -_-
On socializing: It's true that some of us prefer to hang out with our own cliques and the people we're familiar with. Sometimes, naturally, socializing will be forced upon us for whatever reason be it a function or work or some form of training/event. This calls upon our fortitude to just suck it up and make aquaintances (sp?) with these people. But what about people you already know? You don't like them....not entirely sure if they like you as well but you do NOT get along. So what's the point? Are friends the people you can call upon to take advantage of them because they're your friends?
I might have to expand this point into a whole bloody rant.
On an inferiority complex: I think it's fair to say that some people, under much torment from their peers take to rather drastic measures to prove themselves worthy to be in your company. How unfortunate that we don't always accept people for who they are.
On religion and Islamic banking: What a way to beat around the bush. :D
On my banking life: I don't know shit and I'm so bloody screwed.
p/s: Ooops, I forgot to leave my thoughts on making words up. It's fine and dandy when they two words already exist. But some made up words don't even have a basis or an empirical start to form them. WTF is up with that? -_-
Ah well, that took a lot longer than I expected. I think I'll have to bring my laptop with me soon to work these next couple of weeks in order to keep my thoughts in order.
pps: i recieved 1188 new mails since last tuesday on my work mail. i think i checked the day after we went to yum cha. whatever day that was. i guess it can be said that it was rather 'few'. Spent my lunch hour clearing my mail box though. :s YOU BASTIDS! lol
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