Saturday, August 25, 2007

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  Not one donation in the .. however long this has been up.
  
  Now either you're all as poor as I am, or you're all incredibly selfish.
  
  I wonder how many people come to my site that look at the button, scoff, and think that I'm being pitiful and feeling sorry for myself. I wonder how many of those people are planning to get some designer outfit or accessory or some other innocuous materialistic item that costs a fortune within the next week. I wonder how many of those people would freak out if they can't get what they want.
  
  Newsflash: America has poverty too.
  Yes, this wonderful country.
  
  Next time you're out shopping for your ridiculously oversized 500-fucking-dollar Dolce and Gabana handbag, think of the thousands of others that can't even afford to buy food for their families.
  These families that live on $20 or less a month. Where all their money goes to bills they can't even pay.
  
  Yes. I fall into this genre.
  Surprised?
  

  
  Do you realize how embarrassing it is? I'm not asking for pity, I'm asking for help. Whenever I see one of these buttons on other websites, I wish like hell I could help because I know what it's like to be so fucking poor, it renders you hopeless.
  
  Go ahead and tell me to get a job. Go right ahead. But don't even think about it unless you know what social anxiety disorder is.
  
  Me getting a job a) won't solve anything. Help maybe, but .. not much. And b) will stretch my nerves to no end. I already live in enough anxiety and stress. Being forced around unfamiliar people to the point where I shake, won't do much for my already unstable mental state. Who's to say that I'll even be able to hold a job down because of it? I've applied several different places. No one will hire me. My parents are both on disability, my grandma gets only a fraction of what she used to now that my grandpa died. And you're telling me that you can't spare a few bucks? I'm not one to "beg" or even to ask for things like this. But things are worse than they ever have been. And I'm becoming desperate.
  
  
  

  

  
  
  Email me if you have questions.
  jenigmaprism@yahoo.com
  
  
  
  

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