What makes her your every dream I was meant to see?

I finally realise the need for me to stop thinking and to let go, completely. I can live without you and I will smile, because I deserve to.

It'll all get better in time. (:

FINALLY, rid of the annoying-emo-bug. Cheers. Anyway, there's meet the parents later and I should be bathing nowww. Haha. And there's ballet later, which I am reallyy dreading. I've never dread ballet before. But I guess, I'm just not the same anymore. I am like ranked the lowest in class and trust me, it's not a good feeling. Not at all. And I thought I would be back in form after awhile but, it's been some time and I'm still as bad as I first started. I guess taking inter was a big big mistake.

Okay what the efg, since I am already taking, I should just 'bite my teeth and pull through it', right? Alright then, I SWEAR, I'll work as hard as ever for today's class.

At the very least.

I'm just never good rnough am I? However hard I try, no matter who I try to please, there will always be something I do wrong or someone I displease or some criteria that I just cannot meet.

 What am I suppose to do? I try so hard but what happens when you fail after you think you have already tried your best?

Where is the answer key to that question?

I've thought about it. When you fail, no matter what, it simply implies that you're not meant to do it. No matter how hard you try, or how much you give, if you're not meant to do it, then everything you put in would only be inconsequential.

I do not know what made me decide to blog here. Deprivation of privacy at blogger I guess. Anyway, term's reuslts are mostly out. I think I did generally okay. At least there are no signs of F9, YET. Aha.

Why is it that sometimes, when you feel for once, that you are doing something right, people somehow have to come along to topple that delicate balance? The peripheral difference between right and wrong suddenly seems so blurry, I am not sure if I am right this time. Somebody tell me, because I find no wrong in following my heart.

I miss you, bitch.

HELLO! (: hoh-ho. i changed my skin eh. i thought it was nicer than the previous one. cause, well cause the previous one was just too, uh. emo? not really the right word. well just not happy. haha.

anyway, today was a-okay! like we laughed a lot during break 1. ' do you know? no i dont....' HAHA. ( inside joke) aha. skipped pe cause i couldnt be bothered to play neither badminton nor tennis. i mean, how lame is that? and i wasnt prepared to get more muscle aches so, SKIPPED! (: haha. read finished 'it girl' ting hui! haha.  SEEENNNNTTTOOOOSSSAAA HOOOWWWW?! ugh.

i wanted to go roller blading earlier on. but i took a look outside and saw how strong the sun was, i mean is, today. so i decided to stay in and keep COOL. haha. which is hard cause im HHOOOTTT. (: nah, kidding. haha!  tomorrow's shopping day! yay! <3 okay anyway, i like feel tired now. so i guess i'll be off for now! seeya!

HELLO WORLD. YO PEOPLE. HEY ALIENS.

 haha. okay crap. my second post! (: so today was a smiley smiley day! <33 i LOOOOVVVEEEDDD today! why? well, cause i've been smiling. (: (: be happy for me yo! haha.

 i just finished my geog project research. on exxon valdez oil spill. ( huh? PRECISELY! like who cares man? it happened about 20 years ago) aha. so i almost died trying to finish but i did finish it anyway. haha.

oh um, i also finished my lian bI! im so proud of myself! *taps shenna on shoulder* and says : WELL DONE SHENNA! (: HAHA. lameshit. okay im outta here. (:

*ps. thanks ting hui for helping with this! <33 (: