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Wednesday, March 05, 2008

So Behind in school :(

I honestly can not believe how far behind I fell in school so far this semester. It all started two weeks ago when I had to miss and entire week of school due to the fact that I had the flu and then this past week I only made it to school two days (this past week was my fault so I can't blame anyone but myself for missing those days) and now I can't help but feel like I'm completely and utterly fucked, especially in my anatomy and physiology course that I was having a hard time to begin with and due to my absences I missed three whole chapters, oh yea and I might have a test in the class tomorrrow which I would know if I went to school thursday but I didn't! Not to mention I still have to make up two tests in my medical terminology course and write a paper for my intro to computers course<<<eeeshh>>> I really don't even know where to start today and the sad part is I had all weekend to try and catch up but of course I put it all off until today and know I don't even know if it will be possible to get it all done in one day??

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It is now wednesday afternoon and I should be in school but alas I am not. Needless to say I am still behind in work and am actually starting to think about changing schools due to financial aid problems that this school threw at me for next semester at the last minute and the fact that I know that I ultimately want to end up in the nursing profession so it seems as though the time I am spending going for my medical assistant degree could be better spend going for my LPN and RN, which is what I need to research and decide within the next month. I just feel like I'm so far behind this semester that there is little if any hope of me catching up and I know it's all my own fault but it sucks....... For now I'm going to go and take my anatomy and physiology test and then go shopping for a vibrator :)

Saturday, January 26, 2008

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Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Currently Reading
Crank
By Ellen Hopkins
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Once Again I Slept the Day Away

Once again I ended up taking a 6 hour nap and waking up at somewhere around two in the morning wide awake! I hate when this happens and it seems to happen all to frequently to me. So what else to do but come surf the net for awhile and poke around Xanga. I also figured that now was as good of time as any to make a post since I never seem to find the time during the day anymore. I went to Borders two days ago and picked up a cd of 4 guided meditations. The name of the CD is Living Joy and it's by Gael Chiarella. Sadly enough I haven't used it yet but I am looking forward to giving it a go hopefully tomorrow morning sometime. I also downloaded some drumming circle CDs to use when I am meditating or giving myself Reiki treatments and found a few CDs in the store that I would very much like to pick up when I have a few extra dollars. One of them being Deepak Chopra's "The Soul of Healing Meditations" and the other being his CD "Chakra Balancing: Body, Mind and Soul". I am soo not used to buying CDs though since you can pretty much download anything off the net these days so it does feel rather wierd actually going into a store a buying one. But I have tried looking for them on a number of torrent sites and have unfortunately had no luck finding them. So off to the store I go. Other than that the last two days of my life have been pretty uneventful. I don't start my next class till Sept. 26 or 27th so I do have some time on my hands which I plan to utilize to the best of my ability. That's right, no more 6 hour naps!!! I have been reading and am a little more than half way through with the book "Crank". I don't know if any of you have read it but it's a really good book about addiction from the perspective of a young adult and the writing style, more like poetry than actual writing is quite nice for a change. So I guess that's all for tonight. I will post again when I actually have something worth saying I guess. Oh yea I forgot, my mom bought me a beautiful bouquet of flowers today and boy did it make my day. I love flowers and she knows this so she decided to get me some out of the blue to make my day. I really do have a wonderful mother......Anyway, I will post pictures of them tomorrow since I have them on the camera already but I didn't upload them to the computer yet.

Friday, September 07, 2007

Currently Listening
Little Plastic Castle
By Ani Difranco
As Is
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The Power of the Universe

I just recently (on wed. and Thurs.) took my Reiki level one classes and got my first attunement. I can describe it as nothing less that wonderful. I can't say that I had some kind of profound awakening or anything like that but I definitely feel like I have begun a journey and that journey will eventually lead to an awakening or sorts. I went into the class with an open mind, not believing or disbelieving but letting the techniques and the Reiki speak for itself and boy did it ever. Now I wouldn't classify myself as an extremely spiritual person (something I want to change) but I can't deny that when we preformed the Reiki on ourselves and then when we preformed it on each other a sense of well-being and happiness entered into my brain and body. I felt all warm and fuzzy inside too. It's now 3 weeks until my teacher is offering her three day, Reiki level two classes and attunement and I want nothing more than to be a part of that class. She told me as long as I make a daily practice of giving myself Reiki treatments and read the portion or our text that went along with the class that I would be ready to take the level two workshop at the end of this month. That is my goal and I will achieve it! I also want to start meditating on a regular basis. I would like to find some good cds that cover guided imagery meditations and practices of that sort so I plan on looking through the web and amazon.com tonight and then going to either Borders or Barnes-N-Noble tomorrow sometime. As far as tonight goes, my allergies are seriously kicking my ass and my throat feels like shit so I plan on giving myself a Reiki treatment and then getting ready for bed and probably reading some more of the text book before I end up going to bed. Boy do I hope I feel better tomorrow!!

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

You have absolute power in your country for 1 hour; what do you do?

I don't know why I actually decided to answer one of the featured questions for once but this seemed like an interesting enough question to warrant a response. Anyway, back to the question. If I were given absolute power over the USA for one day I would obolish the death penalty. I know it might sound like a boring or pointless answer since I have absolute power and all and I could do ANYTHING I want but I figured I would keep it reasonable and realistic. My reasoning for abolishing the death penalty, and everyone is entitled to their own opinion so I know I might take some gruff for this but, the reason I would do away with the death penalty is because I feel like it's using the theory of an eye for an eye and I morally believe that to be wrong. No matter how many people a person has killed, killing them will not bring those people back! and now I know people are going to say but these people should suffer as the victims suffered but whose to say they won't. I believe in karma and I believe in a higher power and I believe that these people will be punished or at least made to make right what they have done wrong if not in this life then the next. Who are we to take another persons life in the name of justice? Then we are no better than that person. Just because it would be a legal murder doesn't change the fact it is still indeed a murder!!

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