"the thing that makes you the happiest in life, seem to require the greatest deal of risk."

i think that quote up there is appropriate for how i`m thinking about life right now. i`m telling you, its so hard for me to get back the thing(s) that makes me happy. i know i wont be having it for a loong time. i just have to live & deal with it. i really cant see how i can fix it ryte now. it hurts terribly. i think what my sister & i decided was a good choice. i`m happy of what i decided & i believe its for the very best. the whole situation i`m in i guess its good for the benefit of everyone. well yeah so thats how my life is going right now. really, i`m still in total shock. just be happy right?... thanks for those who`ve listened to me, & tried to help me! much love to everyone.

<3 *CHESA