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| Sigh. Have I ever expressed my concern regarding the nature of my xanga page? It's the most stupid concept ever....
I woke up this morning to thunder. I didn't want to get out of
bed or go to work or even think about the reality that I have class
tonight. I just wanted to snuggle in next to Clint and put
everything else on pause for a few hours.
I managed to get out of the house on time this morning--which is an accomplishment....
Clint woke up in a good mood--he saw me, smiled really big and said
"good morning" ever so sweetly and gave me a kiss...I was surprised
since he didn't come to bed until around 3:00 a.m...(I think)...I
expected him to be tired.
Julia now wants to "wake Clint" every morning as soon as she gets
up....I guess it's lucky for him that she sleeps until 8:00 (the time
that he has to get up for work). He seemed a little surprised
this morning when she ran up to him, said she loved him and wanted to
give him a kiss. He's funny like that--he never sees the obvious
stuff (like how much she obviously adores him) but really picks up on
little things sometimes (like everytime I sigh...he's hears it even
when I don't!). I love waking up with him...
I visited Cornerstone Christian Academy this morning and put Julia on
the the waiting list...she's such a smart little girl and I don't think
that the lady who keeps her now pushes her enough academically. I
want to see her rapid growth (intellectually, I mean--she's been
growing like a weed since the day she was born!) continue. She's
a curious child--like I was--but she's so much smarter than I was, I'm
sure. Having Clint around is a good influence too--he talks to
her like an adult and doesn't baby talk like her dad.
Sign...Julia's dad. Let's not even go there...I'd hate to ruin my good mood.
I love Clint....he left the sweetest "I love you note" in my wallet this morning...It's nice to see him happy again! :)
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| I'm shocked that I've gone this long w/o posting! I guess Clint's right--posting to a journal is easier when your scared, unhappy, insecure or confused! When I go back and look at the early entries--I see a lot of insecurity.
I'm not sure why I'm posting this b/c I really don't have much to say--I visited Clint's site and saw that he posted a doodle so I felt bad that I scold him for not posting all the while, I rarely post either.
We made a big step and moved in together. I was very nervous b/c I wasn't sure how Clint would take having a 2 year old around all of the time. I'm happy to report that he takes up sooo much time with her and seems very happy. I didn't expect them to bond so well so quickly. He's definately a keeper! :)
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| I'm starting to feel bad b/c I haven't posted much lately but....I guess you guys won't hate me.
The last week or so has been absolutely fabulous! I'm not really
sure who stole Clint and left me with the most kind, sweet, caring,
affectionate, loving man in the whole world, but if you're out there
reading this--I choose the new Clint--sorry old Clint! (Don't get
me wrong old Clint, I love you, but new Clint is irrestible!!!)
I'm seeing the Clint I always knew was there--happy Clint. He
keeps telling me that he didn't know he'd ever be happy like this
again. It makes me so happy to hear that b/c I knew it'd
happen--I knew his outlook would turn around--I just didn't know when.
Christmas was awesome--Clint drew me the most fantastic picture of
Julia and also gave a copy to my family--he even had it professionally
printed and is having mine framed! It's quite possibly the second
most beautiful thing I'v ever seen--the first being Julia herself! :)
We are leaving three weeks from tomorrow for Hawaii and I am sooooooooo
excited--the closer it gets the more I think about it. Clint and
I went shopping over the weekend and I bought a new swimsuit! It
was funny to watch him look at all of the swimsuits and analyze what he
liked and didn't like abou them--his face said it all on a
few...! Now if I can just find some sunglasses...
Anyway--I'm still out here and still smiling--matter of fact I'm
smiling so big my face hurts--I'm scared my ears are going to break
away from the sides of my head from being pushed back so much! :)
I love Clint I love Clint I love Clint I love Clint I love Clint I love
Clint I love Clint I love Clint I love Clint I love Clint I love Clint
I love Clint I love Clint and so on and so forth...
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| I haven't posted much lately b/c I've been extremely busy--you know how the Christmas season can get...
Things have been really great lately--I'm good, Clint's good,
everybody's happy. It sort of feels like we haven't had much time
for just us lately but we are used to being alone at his parent's
apartment over the weekends and they've not stayed at the lake lately
so I guess that's why...we are ALWAYS around other people. But
that's not bad--I just love his presence!
It's a little sad--he's leaving in a couple of days to spend the week
of Christmas with his parents in Key West. I know we'll talk but
I realized that it'll be the longest we've been apart in the past 3-4
months! I'll miss him--but'll it'll be great once he comes back
and then in a couple of weeks after he returns--we'll be on our
way to Hawaii!! :) Can't wait.
My most recent thought: I had hoped I'd find someone perfect for
me but I never thought I'd ever find someone so perfect with my
daughter! I love to watch them play and have fun!
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| Clint says:
"You are remarkable, and beautiful, and it's terribly scary in that I feel at times that I could be happy with you."
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Don't you forget. Everybody you see today, remember that you are more
mind numbingly beautiful than any of them. And don't doubt that for a
second."
"I didn't find you while looking for the alumna page, I found the alumna page while looking for you."
"You are as important to me now as anything has ever been to me."
"they cannot speak for what I want and what I can handle."
You'd think I was the greatest person in the world.
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