Hey everyone!!!!! yeah i told Josh today that i dont like him in that way. but only after he wrote me a note that said after he kissed me i was the only thing he knew to be right. we only hung out once and we kinda just started talking not too long ago. Apparently he read the note i wrote him and was embarassed because he thought we were going to go out or something. But i still like James, alot!! He was the sweetest guy, and i let him go. who is dumb enough to do that!!!! If only there was a way that he could know how much i still like him. but i guess he has moved on with his girlfriend. so maybe i should too. even though it would be a waste of time to try because i know that the only guy i want i cant have. so i may like him so much that i will just wait around, probably for nothing. but i am willing to wait, maybe there is a small chance left he is willing to give me. even if its not right now. So maybe he will accidentally read this and see how i really feel. Since i cant tell him to his face because when i look at him i just want to stare in his eyes forever. well g2g for now. love ya'll

             Amanda

hey ya'll !! yea so theres a guy named Josh that likes me. i thought i liked him to, but when he kissed me i didnt feel anything. I guess its all because i still really like James. He is the sweetest guy i have ever met. So when i was with Josh last night the only person i thought about was James. I made the biggest mistake of my life when i let him go. Any person in their right mind would NEVER break up with him. He is like the total package. he is hot, sweet, funny, and is the only guy i know who can make me cry when he smiles at me. He is the perfect guy, and everything i want in a guy. But he has a girlfriend. She treats him like crap. I know i can never have him again so i dont want anyone. Whats the point? If i cant have who i want whats the point in wanting at all? well g2g.

                 Amanda