my gramps..

Saturday, July 08, 2006

my gramps..
dear every1,

yesterday wus very hard for me.abigail wusn't there for me.. no 1 wus. i couldnt get ahold of ne 1. so well with this being said. idk if ne1 can get ahold of me now. im sorry. but goodbye.. ty. ashlea,sierra,amanda,and most of all. ABIGAIL. i just need some time alone now. cuz well.. i am hurtin inside.. yesterday at 5 pm.. my grandfather died.. and with me not even knowin him.. idk y i just hurt.. i guess cuz its family so im sorry.. i'll be back wn/ev = when eva i get betta.. ty for yall prayers. and yall suport. but.. i just dont need ne1 right now. cuz there is no point into needin somethin that wont be there.. so.. abigail. i miss u so much.. and i love you.. but with me being away from u so long.. its just made me sadd. u can call my cell.. but i wont answer. u can call anywear u know to to get ahold of me.. but u wont get ahold of me.. cuz i just need to be alone.. i am tired of havein to need something or some1. that cant help me.. i am cryin. and wus since yesterday when i found out the news of my gramps.. well.. im gonna go now.. night. and peace.. i love you abigail. and thanks for doin the best u can at times to be here for me.. im just really sadd cuz i havent seen u in a week. and then.. we didnt get to hang yesterday like usaid we could. and then... just... u have had a funn week. when me.? all i have had wus saddness and lonelyness in my week.. well i love you abigail.. but im now gone.. peace right now.. i want u to lisen to "If i close my eyes"cuz thats how i feel right now.. that and the song that i cant find... if u can find for the song"45" by shinedown

then i want u to lisen to it.. but dont get any ideals if u do. cuz that wont happen to me.. well peace