Someone else! I know you all have been chomping at the bit to find out how the Sunburst State Finals went. Well, I got fourth runner-up, which for those of you math majors out there, is the equivalent of last place in my age division. It took a lot not to burst out crying on the stage when they announced my number for that, but I smiled and when they announced the winner, I was honestly so happy and excited for the winners. They TOTALLY deserved it. Any of the girls I competed with would have deserved it. They were all so nice and fun to be around. If I had a chance to do it all over again, I would have hung out with them more, if that had been possible, which seems tough because the weekend keeps you SO busy! There's always somewhere to be, either that or you are bored senseless. I am not going on to Internationals, even though I could, but I do want to do state finals again next year. A few of the girls said I should, and that encouragement felt good. Maybe I will do better. I had fun. Although, when I got outside, I started to cry, because while I did not expect to win, I would like to have done better, and the old demons of "You're not good enough, Annika" and "You're ugly, Annika" and so on and so forth made it even harder. But I have to learn not to base my worth and self-confidence in old lies about myself. All I can do is me, and no one can do it but me. So there. I was trying to explain to Trevor how I feel when I look in the mirror and hate what I see. Please do not think I am fishing for compliement comments, I am just stating how I feel. But I am working on it. God doesn't make junk.

So...we are hanging out at Mama's because we are staying here until our new apartment is ready. We got a lot of our stuff moved to storage, and maybe another day's worth of packing and then we clean and then we will be outta there for good! *does the butterfly* Yeah, that's right, I just went all late 90s about it, you know when you get excited you want to bust out the Tom & Jerry or th Perculator...don't lie....you know it's true.

Start the new hours tomorrow, noon to five. SLEEP GLORIOUS SLEEP! I cannot tell you how freaking excited I am. I won't really enjoy it too much until all the moving stuff is out of the way, but shut-eye is shut-eye.

Think I will close here, nothing else new. Please post...or don't post...I won't really know the difference, but I would like it if you did!

Ciao!

So, I am here! And be here I mean there. Which is really really here. I got here last week and my computer access is severely limited, unfortunately. But things are well. I am happy to finally bere here (or there, depending on where youa re reading this from).I am pretty much too busy and not busy at the same time. So, I am updating to say that I am alive and to ask that you all pray that I stay that way. I will be at a compter when I can, but it's not often...bummer. So, guess that's all for me. Yay for seeing friends again!