| | [edit] This entry is dedicated to my buddies who are struggling a bit on basically... everything. [/edit]
I am always a step slower than my peers. While they already know their paths and determine to pursuit for what they want, I am still searching for mine. Once I realize what I should do and feel I am already catching up, others seem to have climbed up to another level, leaving me even further behind. The story of catching up seems to be there for quite a while, and I don't see a way to end it.
A lot of "what-if" questions have popped up recently -- "what if I chose not to be an actuary?", "what if I didn't come to US?", "what if I majored in something else?" would I become another person at this time? The possible outcomes would be exciting, but I am actually glad to be the current self. Yes, my "One Step Slow" mentality played a major role to lead to who I am, but in retrospect, without learning from others, "Would I have gone to gym ", "Would I start to believe in what I can do in terms of work?", "Would I ever try to be a better English writer?", "Would I even play basketball?"... I am sure all answers would have been negative.
I began to believe that I was One Step Slow because I was not quite there yet. As time goes on, I found multiple opportunities to improve my skills and expand my knowledge. Even though I may still behind the curve, it matters nothing. I start to believe in myself.
I hope what I wrote will help some of my friends who are experiencing their own identity crisis. What I am sure is that one day you will find out what you want to do, and more importantly, what you CAN do. Don't be discouraged on being couple steps slow; just pick things up and soon things will be fine.
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| | Posted 9/18/2007 8:57 PM - 1 view - 2 comments
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