The packed schedule of Chemistry and Economics exams made up the worst nightmare in my entire life. The Chemistry exam has been a matter of life and death to me. I can never recall how many hours I have endured doing pastpapers and how much effort I have paid staring at each experimental set-up in awe. Despite the time and effort, I was not certain about a portion of my answers, nor am I satisfied with my performance. Now, the papers that pile up to my waist become rubbish and nothing else is left. I did looked through all of them before I gulped down a tablet of sleeping pill the day before exam, yet I couldn't find a clue of my future in them. I can't remember not wanting to be a doctor. For years, I have reminded myself that I have to attain excellent Chemistry result which promises a path to the medicine faculty. Each time I bypassed the building of the medicine faculty of the Hong Kong University, I would feel an emotion or desire that spread through my body like fire. My father told me he ranked top in chemistry in the CE among all candidates in his time. I bet I just lack the perseverance as well as ability to achieve such splendid destiny. These days, I feel my soul fading away and I'm giving way to temptations. I vow that I will offer as much as I can to make a come-back in AL. I'm not losing hope.

Halfway towards the finish.