Today was just not a good day.  I have never felt so stupid, so put down, so discouraged ever.  Even at cooper and high school I felt stupid (more so at cooper) but I was never as discouraged as I am now.  I'm right now dreading going to work tommorrow, cuase Im so scared of going through another day where I cant answer questions, or just cant do the stuff they want me to do.  The more i think about it, my problem isnt the job, some of you might know what im talking about, so im not gonna elaborate.  ARG!!!  I just wish i could get though one day where I knew what i was talking about and answered ever question with resoundingly confident answers.  Instead of a shy little yes? or i dont know.....

Some people can be so mean......I mean what did i ever do to them?  I dont do anything!  Im neutral, i dont think i offend anyone.  I cant obsess over this, i mean it shouldnt bother me.  But it does...Im sad...cheer me up...