Well I haven't updated this thing in a long ass time... I doubt anyone even looks at these things anymore, but anyway....

I only have 10 days left until I have my baby, July 20th. I'm excited I guess.... I have alot of things going through my head right now.... Chris and I were broke up in Dec and January, got back together in Feb. ever since we broke up, things haven't been the same.... maybe it's just cuz i'm hormonal, who knows..... I just wish things would go back to the way they were.... I feel like he wants someone else every day, and I hate it... he tells me he doesn't and that he loves me... but I just don't think it's true. I feel bad because if he's telling me the truth, i'm gonna feel dumb, but I know how much ppl like to keep things from me.... so yah.... idk what to think anymore.

I have my dr. appt tomorrow. hopefully i'm dialated so I can get this thing over with.... it's been too long.

Oh yeah.... i'm having my baby shower after the baby is born, so ppl can hold it and stuff..... it's going to be august 11 at 2 in valley city... if you wanna go, let me know, or if u wanna ride with me, i'm driving my car down there so yah..... just let me know!

-Amanda