Monday, July 30, 2007
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I had my retainers adjusted today, and they kind of a hurt. Enough that I don't want to eat. That almost never happens. Got the rest of the clothes I need to take to school with me this weekend, and some other dorm roomish stuff today. A week from today I get to go stay with Emily for a night (YES! :) and then I am flying to Florida for the rest of the week. I cannot WAIT to see Amanda, I'm so excited! In case I have never mentioned it, she is one of my best friends. Not best friend like ~bff oh my! But like a real, funny, amazing, awesome friend that you feel honored to know.... The office is really cold right now. I can't believe I will leave in a month. I approach things very, factually? I don't know the word. But I just take it as a fact and something that must be dealt with. Emotions do not play a deciding factor in the long run, because there is a right and wrong path, and the right and best one must be taken. It is all black and white. This is a black and white thing. I know I am supposed to go there, but that does not mean for one minute that I want to move to Indiana. What if I lose my accent! I know it will be fun, and perfect, because it is exactly where God wants me. And the time is right. And what's more, I'll come home for fall/winter break, spring break, summer...in fact, I'll finish, and probably come back home at least for a little while when I'm out. If I make it out! But I know it won't be the same. It's not like I haven't ever been away from home for a while, and my mom still makes my snack every day when I get home from work while I watch Blues Clues. Not at all. But am I supposed to be a grown up now? I just turned 18 last thursday. People are still asking me what grade I am going to be in. I guess I still look 15 or 16. I still walk into doorframes, and lose everything. At any rate, it (it being, umm?) springs upon one quite fast. Soon I'll have to buy my own tooth paste. And other things too. I can think of ways to save on toothpaste, but my roommate and others who get too close might not understand it. I might start keeping up with my toothbrushes though, because the rate at which I currently lose them could be very expensive.
You know really, it is all good. Wonderful. Beatiful. I"M SO EXCITED! I think I just told a lie though. It is okay though, I am just thinking about it too much today, that is all.
ps. I am pretending like I don't care. :) Because most of the time I don't think so pessmistically! And I don't like it when mom and dad and Sarah cry, and when Sharon says she doesn't want me to leave.
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p.s. Just as a precaution...coming home at Christmas won't be the same and you might feel a little out of place...but you will LOVE being in Texas, because there is no place quite like it!
I've heard about the "greeness" of Texas...with all y'alls rain down there.
What school are you going to?
prayers for ya and it's good lookin younger than you age ... later on down the road it plays for you well.
Dan
I just couldn't help but think of that saying when I read your post. Life is always about change--just when we get comfortable with something, thats when life throws us a curball. Change is good though, being away from home is also a good experience. It will help you find who you are, and learn to stand on your own two feet. At the wise old age of 22--I have experienced ALOT of change since I graduated from high school. It doesn't feel like it should be that far behind me already, but overall--when you get to college, you'll be loving every minute of it when you find your place.
Indania winters aren't nearly as bad as the winters are in Mid-Michigan are, but they're def. more colder than you're used too. Oh, and you'll get to see snow! haha