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| Torn Between Two Cities..LOL.
sitis..??
okay...i dno wtf im talking about..or what i meant to say in this..
but i just feel like typing..
I dont know what i want anymore..
I want to be in NY and thats all i know..
well i dont really care...as long as i have some good friends..
fuck..i wish i knew how to explain this crap..
but i dont..so.....fuck.
i feel like insanely cracked out atm.
erg..i need to get back to the city..the end.
that should be my 1st priority right?
i mean..if i do save up a crap load of money for kenya..wouldnt i rather go to NY instead??
shit...im so confused...
i need to go smoke.
peace
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| Strong EnoughSurprisingly, things with gage are going really well.
We liek never fight. even though we're in a long distance relationship..
It's really strange to me..But its like perfect..
LDR's r usually really hard and exhausting..but this time its not..at all..
I'm just so thankful that i have someone like him to keep me sane.
He's so patient. It's amazing. I Love You so much Gage Phillip Sumeraj!!!!
Anyways, soooo..i started my new job at IVY today. teaching little (ADORABLE) kids english.
wow. they're sooooo cute! but, im sooo exhausted! 6 hours of saying, "What is this?" "How about this?" "Do you like (blank)?" lol. it's fun though.
So, I tlaked to Jazzybos the other day! & yes im mentioning this because i hope she reads this, seeing as how i found her new xanga. but yea yo, u really need to get ur ass here next year!! seriously, get ur grades up, eurotrip & come to sophia dude<33333 aaaah! that'd be so fucking awesome. I love you dude. oh, and get a fkin webcam!!!!!!! or like..a computer thats not a gay DESKTOP! LOSER! mad love<3
okay, so, DAVID MARTIN is the shit. look him up on myspace. his songs are fucking good. (tho they sound liek everything else..but they are good. dont front.)
baaah its so hottttt! i like never want to leave my house anymore...i'm debating whether to go to Roddy's party or not. but we'll see how i'm feeling tomorrow. maybe i'll just go for the beginning of the party and catch my last train.
erg....fuck. im so lazy. im sorry.
so i think my finger is like really messed up. i cant bend it really..it like hurts and stings...
so moving on...I really want to go to NY, but i really dont think i can save up that much money by march. so if not next spring, it'll be the winter after that or the spring after that. i'm sorry for being a douche. but if i had all the riches in the world, u kno i'd be there like every day i didnt have school or work...haha<3
ok well i'm gna stop wasting away on xanga.
i LOVE you jazzybos && gageyyyy<3
&& Asukankan<33333333 (I'm sorry for trying to show u me n gage's vids..hahahahahaha!)
ok peace out homie g.
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| 7,000 miles apart..thats insane.
but whatever..i guess it really doesnt matter how far apart 2 ppl are, cuz its still a long distance relationship, and they're all a bitch. but then again, visiting soemone thats a thousand miles away, and visiting someone that 7,000 miles away is a big difference (price wise) lol
ugh anyways, off to school. tomorrow is my last day, then a week of finals & im freeee!!!
xox
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| Fucking shitty shit fuck.Life is so fucking weird.
I find myself in the weirdest of situations..
My phone bill shot up $600 in 2 days and i have no fkin idea why..
bleh screw this.
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| First Friday without my Baybee..When I was thinking about what to name this entry, many things came to mind...
such as....Worst Night EVER. or, Most Random Night of My Life.
but then i thought that the one that i chose was better. it explains a lot.
first of all...Friday night are the nights i always spend at my baby's. i literally skip out of school to go see him with my huge backpack full of clothes.
Okay, so let me start by just updating u...
freshman year is almost over. Gage has moved to kenya and im dying. i am going to fail every class i took this sem.
i have a job interview tomorrow and im ssssooooo nervous.
So my morning started off normal..talked to Gage. Then I had to get ready for school, and I realized it was my first friday without my baby, cuz usually i havea whole backpack to fill up with clothes. so that was weird.
Then Gage made me cry. cuz i kinda felt like he didnt care abotu me anymore...cuz he was desperately trying to get off skype, but then again it was like...4AM for him..lol..whatever. i'm jsut scared that this is gna kill me. and it wont work out. which will kill me too.
ANYWAYS, then i got to school, had a kanji quiz. I cheated and prolly got 100. (my first one in that class i think)
and then....i dno..talked to lots of ppl today. then TP we watched a trippy ass fkiin movie, and then English we wrote haikus. or..senryus? and then got ou 30 mn early.
During english though, my phone rang and it was this lady who matt works for but hes leaving and i wanted to take his place so he asked and gave her my #. so thennnnnn, she called and i told he id go for an interview tomorrow.
man im so nervous. i dno what to wear n shit..fuck iiiiiiiiit. i mean i already have a job, and anotherone i could go back to.but 2500 an hour is pretty fkin good.
So thennn, asuka picked me up from school. and we chilled there for a bit. then we hopped on the train to shibz with miyoko, but miyoko had to go home to her new apt in ebisu! (LUCKYYY) so then in shibz, me n asuka met up with noah, and went to bic camera, where he got some GREEN LABEL! (fucking grossssss) and then we went to go play darts. he sucked but he won. (luck) me n asuka were kickin his ass first but then no. he won. i got a low ton n shit toooooo. (>.<)
kay so then we went to bum park for a bit. then miyoko called and told us to meet her at sankusu next to hubs.
so when we got there, MAD sophia kids were there, which was cool cuz asuka was havin a good time socializing. i dno..we ran into sooo many random ppl! lol, we saw tomo (well, i finally met him and asuka and miyoko were all like TOMO!!) and oh yea, noah had to leave early to catch his bus home. anyways, lots of random crazy shit.
homeless dude. alcohol.
bleh. so we somehow ended up in karaoke with miyoko's friends. (wow im never going with those fuckers again.)
i mean, im not the nicest person in the world, but i wont like b a dick to ppl i dont know, and i wont be inconsiderate n shit. fuck esp a guy to a girl like wtf. so me and asuka were fucking pissed durin karaoke. like i got a drink spilled on me, mic stolen away, yelled at, like...just shit that really didnt need to happen. fucking drunk ass lanky fucking big bird looking ass wipe. i swear i could have poured that whole pitcher of calpis sour on his fucking ugly jew fro. OMG. anyways.ew he was so ugly. and those other ppl were so weird. and yea then cute little adam had weed n a bong. so hea passed it around, but i didnt smoke.
anyways, we got out of karaoke, thank god. stayed as far away as possible from those guys. saw illirijan, and nik, and bobbeh (as i remember gino calling him) lol illirijan cheered me up but then he told me about how being engaged is fucked up. and whatever, maybe it was for him, but im loving it. so then we went to a standing bar, and i really dont know, things got weird n messy, but me n miyoko were like fk the bar, so we went back to stand in fornt of mac, but then it was gay so then i went back to the bar and miyoko came too. then i was like ok screw this, im catching last train.....
then as i was walking towards the sta. i saw cielo. i called asuka to come say hi cuz i knew she was friends with him, and i knew she hadnt seen him in a while. yea then i finally got on my way home, but then no, i ran into roddy! and he tried to drag me away with im n his friends buti was like, NO. much catch last train.
and yea, thats kinda my story for tonight.
fuck and thru all of tihs, i wasnt even drunk. how annoying.
whatever. must go to bed<3
xoxox
i love you gage<3
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