Hey so not too much has been going on...i mean just the usual. I've been sick the last few days which really sux and i have to go to soccer tonight and i know its gonna suck but what can ya do? well so theirs been some drama but not to much and I'm really confused right now...I can't even really talk about it bc it's about a guy...Wow shock of the century its about a guy...well this guy will never work out. He's a real sweetheart and hes funny and cute and nice and a great friend but theirs no way in the universe it would ever work bc of history and most of u that read this have no idea who the heck im talking about and the select couple that do probably won't guess it...it makes me so mad bc whenever i talk to him its always about some other girls he likes or girl trouble and im his friend so i wanna help but inside im really like "Gosh these girls don't deserve you stop picking all the losers and look around bc im standing right in front of u" and i wanna be like "you like all these girls that don't want u back and im here and i'd take you in a second" but i cant and he probably wouldnt want me even if he knew i liked him still. Well im gonna go ttyl bye lyl and lots

love always, ash  im kinda sad, angry, and bummed right now