i have never found a more perfect song to tell you what i feel than this. i read the messages you send me. now read mine.

the postal service - nothing better

[ you ]
Would someone please call a surgeon
who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
that you're deserting for better company 

I can't accept that it's over
and I will block the door
like a goalie tending the net
in the third quarter
of a tied game rivalry 

so just say how to make it right
and I swear I'll do my best to comply 

tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better
than making you my bride and slowly growing old together 

[ me ]
I feel I must interject here
you're getting carried away
feeling sorry for yourself
with these revisions and gaps in history 

so let me help you remember
I've made charts and graphs
that should finally make it clear
I've prepared a lecture
on why I have to leave 

so please back away and let me go 

[ you ] 
I can't my darling; I love you so
oh oh 
tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better
than making you my bride and slowly growing old together. 
[ me ]
Don't you feed me lies about some idealistic future
Your heart won't heal right
if you keep tearing out the sutures 
[ you ]
I know that I have made mistakes
and I swear I'll never wrong you again 
[ me ]
You've got a lure I can't deny
but you've had your chance
so say goodbye 

Say goodbye..

***

i'm at home, when i really should be at cbc. oops. i kinda woke up right at 9, couldn't decide what i should do, so i just went online. bahah. i don't wanna wake my parents up anyways. 

yesterday was beach day. i get there right at 11, c everyone there already, n then get on a van. the car ride was.. interesting.. i like don't even remember what happened. so we get there, met everyone, ate, sung worship, n had this relay race. the race was kinda weird.. my group came in last, but it was fun anyways. then.. we went in the water. gosh. that was the first time i ever had my whole body in ocean water. EWW. i felt like i took a handful of salt n just swallowed it. gross. my eyes were stinging. n i think everyone else's were too. [ are ur eyes ok now annie? ] so then i attempted to boogieboard.. n it smacked me in the face. darn u boogieboards. n thenn.. we all rinsed off then played volleyball. oh man.. I SERVED THE BALL !! n i aimed for wells' face. mwuaha. that seemed to help. n then we had to go home. i was really tired on the way back to cbc. wow. that 7 hours seemed so short. we have to go to the beach again !! haha i only took 10 pics.. n like they all did not turn out well. hmph !

hmm.. what's the next hangout thingy? yu jiang's party ! yay. after that.. it's my bday.. not sure what i'm gonna do yet