My eyes burn bloodshot from staring at this blank screen wondering how you live with yourself. I may have closed the door but you locked it.  This is all my fault how dare I blame my own shortcomings on your perfect being.  Your grace is divine and my doubt heresy. My stomach turns and blood churns when I think of you exchanging pillow muffled moans.  It was supposed to be me don’t you see.  I go insane without your touch my lunacy has no bounds.  My moods move so quickly I can hardly keep up with which boy you choice tonight.  I pray for revenge for this battle of losing fights.  There is no upside to this anger, can’t you see you’re killing me!  If only you could spare me now you’d know what a beaten, broken man looks like.  I realize now you won’t stop me as I walk out that door.  You took everything from me and left from here I have nothing.  There is nothing I can say it’s over.  MY LIFE IS CRASHING BEFORE MY EYES