There's a whole lot going on in my life at the moment. Great things, mostly. Work is busy, little one is fascinating, funny, obstinant, articulate, observant, imaginative and somewhat unpredictable. I feel like Mr. Rounded and I are on parallel paths but rarely get a chance to connect, other than sharing a small secret laugh when our child does or says something unintentionally funny.
It's finally warming up around here, and the rain is actually feeling nice when it's falling in warmer air.
And now that Passover is over, I can try to get back to eating the way that feels best for me. Whatever that is.
I've been feeling kind of crappy lately, and I think that how and how much I'm eating has something to do with it. And that I haven't had as much time for exercise, that also drives me crazy. It's not a good combination, aside from the fact that my weight is up a little.
My mind has been wandering around to a few different options, some of which I've ruled out altogether, and others which I think may have merit.
One of the better thoughts I've had pertains to tracking down a fat-friendly registered dietitian. I actually have a friend with a referral, if I want it. So then I think, if I'm going to see a dietitan, I'm going to need to keep a food diary. Which sounds just about as appealing as going on a diet, or marching in the rain with a 50-pound pack. But maybe I can handle it. Maybe it's worth a try...
If I do see an RD, it will be on the following terms:
1) My goal is not to lose weight
2) I want to get back to eating in response to my body's own cues (rather than pushing past hunger sometimes and going for hours on end without drinking or eating anything because I'm immersed in work)
3) If I do lose a little weight, I could live with that
4) I'm not interested in eating anything just because it's "good for me," or cutting anything out just because it's "bad for me."
5) Maybe there's a creative way for me to fit in some more exercise without having to spend more time away from my little one.
For me, success would be feeling a bit more comfortable in my own skin, listening to my own body better about how much it needs of food, beverage, sleep and movement.
Oh, and I thought
this post at
Fatgrrl was fascinating.
And this
one, at
The F-Word.org.And I feel like I really identify with
the not-fat writer to Aunt Fattie over at
Shapely Prose.
And, there's just been so much good stuff to read and comment on but I haven't had time, but I'm so enjoying the addition of
Hyde and Seek to the blogroll.
So, how have you been?
Comments (4)
Word of advice: If you go to see a dietician, chances are they will lecture you against those "bad" foods you still want to incorporate. Dieticians, by training, are more interested in healthy eating as opposed to intuitive eating. Intuitive eating still defies the logic of many, even though it seems like the most logical way to eat out there. Your best bet is to find a dietician who is connected to an eating disorders treatment facility or clinic, because they are often more understanding of disordered eating than traditional dieticians.
Good luck!
I'm loving Hyde and Seek too! :) And I really feel you on this: "I feel like Mr. Rounded and I are on parallel paths but rarely get a
chance to connect, other than sharing a small secret laugh when our
child does or says something unintentionally funny." :(
Hi! I just found your blog and it caught my eye because I'm kinda just waiting to be dx with Type 2 diabeties. My mom and both aunts have it, I am Hispanic, I am fat, I had Gestation Diabetes (but not really, I think my BS has remained the same as before my pregnancy, but that the scale was lower). On the other had, I'm very active, which is why I'm posting. I had my kids at age 37 and 39, and was very active (mainly running) before kids. However, I just don't have time to work out with kids, work, etc., and I just didn't want to be away from my kids, now 6 and 4. What I wish I would've gotten early: an elliptical trainer! I've had mine for a little over a year now, and LOVE it. We keep in in the same room as the t.v., and I watch kid's videos or pbs shows with my kids while I work out. We talk about the show, movie, they show me their drawings, I stop for hugs, to get them water, etc. Sometimes they will "jog" next to me, or we'll sing songs together. I LOVE IT! And I get to work out.
Anyway, I saw your post and thought I would share my wonderful find.
p.s. The picture on your blog could be me from behind, walking with one of my kids.
Take care,
Stella
@Stella - I would love to have an elliptical trainer! It would be the perfect thing to do while my little one was watching "Go Diego Go" -- the current favorite show, or with music on. Our house is set up so the TV is in the main, central room in the house and I don't have a great other spot, but we'll see. Maybe I'll find one at a garage sale this year or off of Craig's List.
Thanks for your comment, and you take care, too.