So, i haven't written on xanga for quite some time. I started a my space, they are pretty much the same thing, but its fun to have both i guess.

School is a big waste of time, I want another vacation, or school should only be 3 days a week but still the same amount of time, that would be swell!

Life right now is overly confusing, no matter what i do i can't be happy, with all the fucking meds i'm on you think i would be happy, but hell no it just isn't that easy. In a sense i wish i could go back in time and re-do a ton of things, but then again there are things that cannot be fixed EVER, not everything is our fault, which i need to understand. I didn't do anything wrong, but i guess thats the way my life is made out to be. I HATE IT

aww i have so many things to say that i don't know where to begin, it's weird the way writing things down is always so much easier than saying it outloud or talking to a "counselor" about (bullshit let me tell you) but while i'm writing this it feels like i am talking to a person and it is almost a way of counseling i guess, wow things are weird, and now i sound crazy because i'm talking to the computer haha, well i don't know where i'm taking this, but xanga you help me....

I need people in my life.... it's hard to care for people when you barely care about yourself

we're done...

what am i suppossed to do?

Hawaii was amazing... we went snorkeling and on a dinner cruise, also to a luau after the wedding. The wedding was so gorgeous and i decided that i definetly want to get married on the ocean like that. anyways the trip was super fun and i recommend everybody to go to Maui. The only bad thing is that the food is really expensive. For a gallon of milk it was $9 and a box of cereal was $4, gas was $3.50 and so on... the snorkeling was on $39 per person so that kind of stuff isn't that expensive. Oh and it takes like 400 hours to get there.... not litteraly but it seriously took 20 hours of flying on planes before we got there.. ugh.

So school is incredibly boring already and i wish is was over.... we voted for homecoming king and queen during homeroom.... except my homeroom didn't get to vote which i am kinda ticked about... but oh well, somebody told me they voted for me, which i think is kinda weird because i would NEVER get picked out of all the girls in our school. It's pretty obvious who usually will win, the popular gorgeous ones!  

Homework is a pain as well as work... friends and family are just stressful..... and life... thats a whole other story, lately mine is out of control and unbelievably full of drama and stress, i'm so sick of it and i want it to end it's just giving people headaches and riping people apart.........

fuck the drama

Soo school starts in one week.... uggg    I'm going to have major problems getting up in the morning. Anyways my schedules are:

1st-    Marketing                     Anderson
2nd-  Applied Chemisty          Antonelli
3rd-   Study Hall                     Jonas
4th-    Economics                    Limke
5th-    Gym                             Uetz
6th-    English                          Hopkins
7th-    Enviromental Science    Forness

1st-    US Govt                      McKinnon
2nd-   Independent Living       Dahl
3rd-   Ceramics                      Anderson
4th-    Marketing                    Anderson
5th-    Applied Chemistry       Antonelli
6th-    Study Hall                   Sherman
7th-    English                        Gredesky

Live it up this weekend.... it's the last week of NO SCHOOL!!!

I changed my xanga back to the way it used to be... and i like it better than all the pink! Don't get me wrong i still love the color pink but i'm just not in that type of mood. Anyways... school registration is super soon (which sucks) ugh im really not looking forward for school to start. I have a hard enough time just waking up for work at 9 or 10 so waking up at 7 is going to be quite interesting.... once school starts i will be there for 5 days and then i get to leave for Hawaii and miss 4 days which will be a blast!

10k was awesome! Unfortunetly i got my clothes and all my belongings stolen from me on the 1st night we camped.... yup thats right ALL my clothes. i was sooo pissed but i found a way to get over it    a lot of people didn't go because they are going to WEFEST instead... i would but i don't have enough money

What have i accomplished this summer?

~ absolutely nothing