Tuesday, July 15, 2008

• I lost 10lbs!  I've been working out, biking, and walking, and maybe eating better too.

  I intend to lose more, really 50lbs would be great, but hmm seems rather unlikely, but still I will work on being a healthier more fit me.

  Though I must confess, its not ultimately about health, thats a nice side perk to weighing less.

  Really it comes down to body image.  I cant stand weighing as much, as a did! and still do, and am not comfortable in a body that size, its my own insecurity.  I've longed to be fit and trim so long, and about 10 years ago, I did it!  I got me weight down to the point where I got called skinny, I dropped 50lbs over a year from 1998-1999.  That actually made me feel good. ME! SKINNY?

  I enjoyed buying clothes, things fit better, and I felt more confident. 

  But, the years drift by, and the weight, pound by pound creeps back, and 10 years later, its that much more effort to lose it.  BUT, if I dont work on it, it will only be that much harder in 10 more years, and so on.

  So, I'm trying, and part of it, is to concede I will not be skinny, but at least fit.

  And then the larger question is, would I be happier then? IDK, I'll have to update as conditions change.

   

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