whhoooaa long time sorry guys. this update is for ms. brittany lee. Happy birthday sweetie.

LIVE YOUR LIFE FOR YOU <3

And this invasion
Makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick

And how can you look at me ;; when i can't stand myself <//3

Sometimes I'm selfish fake
You're always a true friend
And I don't deserve you
'Cause I'm not there for you <//3

They can say what they wanna say
Cause tonight I just don’t even care :)

Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you where something different
That's when it all just fell apart </3

I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me

the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life

I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life ..

Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart </3

You could call me six times but still I won't pick up the phone
You could spend all your money on me
but still I'll say no

I never looked at you that way
'Cause I always thought you were gay

<33Lo

Im in the giving mood. Merry Christmas ;]

it's funny. because when you do something right, no one remembers. but when you do something wrong, no one forgets. </3

we go to school for thirteen years && the one thing they never teach us is how to say good-bye </3

The key to individuality is to get rid of that " I'm afraid of looking stupid "  line of thought..

load of condoms && a bottle of vodka.
_____________ now that's romance <3

if she could show you how much you hurt her // you'd never be able to look her in the eyes again.

i miss you.
it's as simple as that.
so stop breaking my heart.
and just come back ..

she's got a list of things she wants to change about herself, because ever since she met you .. .. she's a meSs of insecurities <|3

you know what. GO DATE ALL THOSE GIRLS. go date whoever your little heart desires. because eventually when you're done with all those girls and you find out none of them really loved you. you're going to think about me .. and how much i loved you. you never even gave me one chance. one little try. and you're going to want a try. but you know what.
i'm not gonna W A I T  A R O U N D.

Because this life's just like one big highschool dance... and nobody asked me to go...

Cause I'm stuck with a smile that doesn't fit me anymore.

that's cute. how you thought i would always run back to you and be your rebound. but babyy, i've got news for youu. my world is still spinning around and you're not about to get in it's way.

&& she says she doesn't care anymore
but the look in her eyes and the sound
of her voice tells a different story </33

heyaa;)

I dont have to get drunk anymore to get you off my mind.... I've actually learned to say goodbye.

The hardest part about breaking up is the next day..
opening your notebook only to see "I LOVE HIM!" scribbed all over.

i just wanna call him up and be like "take it or leave it"
-- but i'm afraid to because i have a feeling he'll leave it
because he doesn't need me as much as i need him

i remember every single word you said.. Okay? I'm not naive and im not that stupid.
ive been broken before. i can deal. I'm not scared of moving on with my life.
What I'm scared of is that I'll realize somewhere along the road you were my life -- ``

it`s strange how the shortest words,
( yes & no ) are the ones that take the
most thought.

And all she wants is to be the "i love you" in his profile

I look at you
&& motherfuckingassholeihopeyoufuckingdie
comes to mind.

25 THINGS you learned in Middle School
1. All popular people have the same handwriting.
2. There is always one teacher who is always in a bad mood
3. There is always one teacher that everyone hates that never misses school.
4. Either one, or all of your friends will do something like drugs or cutting, and parade around like they are proud of it.
5. If you listen to Slipknot you are thought of as someone who would bomb the school.
6. The popular people can eat and eat and eat and never gain a pound.
7. Saying hello to a teacher is known as "sucking up".
8. Science teachers who like to blow up things are the most popular teachers.
9. Every grade has a perverted teacher.
10. The food is always greasy and never good.
11. Teachers are allowed to break rules and call people stupid, but students aren't.
12. Progress reports always come out the day before a dance.
13. Teachers hate birthdays.
14. There is always one teacher who only likes the popular people.
15. The people who smoke are the stars of the track team.
16. Guys fall for foreign accents.
17. Two girls and two guys always switch back and forth between dating.
18. The big, scary bully types are usually the most sensitive
19. Whatever doesn't kill you, makes you want to die.
20. Every guy sends mixed signals.
21. Most people wear the same brand of clothes, but it's never the exact same item of clothing.
22. A teacher's most favorite thing to do is humiliate you in front of the class.
23. Most smart people are ugly.
24. Most dumb people look good.
25. The "little things" impact you the most.

I've seen this all before. It's like
a reoccurring dream, only with
different people. It's the same
script with a different cast. The
same heartbreak, with a different
person causing the pain. Only,
I'm still the one ending up heartbroken

i feel like an idiot searching for you in the halls
& then when i finally see you, i turn the other way

I absolutely love everything about you,
your big head, your big brown eyes
and even your fucked up personality

sometimes, i wish i was someone else.with a different look, different personality, a different attitude, & a lot less feelings

sarcasm keeps you from telling people what you really think of them

isnt it funny how they always want to be friends right after they break your heart?

sorry guys long time no update-

You won't ever know how much I love you.
` Cause you won't give me a chance to show you. <3

because screwing up takes practice
& i'm well rehearsed . <3 `*

cause i am barely breathing
and i cant find the air.
i dont know who im kidding
imagining you care.

</3 theres only so much i can fake.

you showed me how it feels
to have the sky

within my reach <3

someone once told me
to trust in people.
then he turned around
and walked out of my life
forever

i made a promise to
myself that i will never
miss you. i know why
i left and i'm never
coming back.

boy i feel sorry  for you. there was a girl  that
  would  have  done  anything for you.. she  might
  not  be the  prettiest or the  smartest  but..i can
  guarantee you...
  she would have given you the world

once again... =)

You won't ever know how much I love you.
` Cause you won't give me a chance to show you. <3

it hurts so bad to be alone
&& know that he isn't

i miss your smile.`
but I miss my own more. <`3

the best kind of kiss is the un-expected;;` unplanned
ones that come naturally. like, in the middle of a
sentence.. *

cause i am barely breathing
and i cant find the air.
i dont know who im kidding
imagining you care.

don’t you miss the nights we used to talk for hours
& i held my phone up to my music saying
" this is the part of the song that reminds me of you "

I'm broken hearted on the floor my tears
seep through the cracks under the door,
where im locked in and shut down..
im so sick of picking myself up off the ground
when she smiles. you know
somethings missing because
her eyes don't shine. like
they would if he was here. <333

i said i love you. you said it too. the only things is i didn't lie to you <|3

boys frusterate me. I hate all their indirect messages, I hate game playing. Do you like me or don't you? Just tell me so I can try to get over you.
-- Kirsten Dunst. ` *

i don't care who tells you they love you & i don't care how much they think they do. never in a million years will they ever feel the same way i feel about you <3

you're not friends because you sit together at lunch` or talk on the phone; or have matching flip-flops' or can recite each others wardrode. you're bestfriends because when she smiles, a grin forces itself across your face. no matter how mad you are-- when she cries, you instantly feel her pain, & want to cry with her. When you look her in the eyes you know there's no one you could ever trust more. regardless of how many broken hearts you've had. that's what it means to be best friends. <33

it seems like yesterday i didnt know how hard i could cry* <//3

Stay close enough to have fun,
yet far enough to not get hurt,
and when you start to fall for him,
just remember who caused that dent in your heart.

Bottom line - if you want me, show me.

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