those old songs sneak up,
they still find me and remind me
yeah you come back that easy

I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I've prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything  to move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you

To hear one word would make my day
But there’s no room for me in your life

I never knew till you were gone
how many pages you were on
it never ends, I keep turning
and line after line and you are there again.

I dont know how to let you go
you are so deep down in my soul
I feel helpless so hopeless
its a door that never closes
I don't know how to do this.

She seemed to sail right through
Those dark clouds forming
That he knows he’s headed for

She’s gonna make it
And he never will
He’s at the foot of the mountain
And she’s over that hill
He’s sinking at sea
And her sails are filled
She’s gonna make it
And he never will

you know it’s not like she’s forgot about him
She’s just dealing with the pain
And the fact that she’s survived so well without him
You know it’s driving him insane

1.Do you know the most surprising thing about heartache?  It doesn't actually kill you.  Like a bullet to the heart, or a head-on car wreck, it should.  When someone you've promised to cherish forever says, "I never loved you," it should kill you instantly.  You shouldn't have to wake up day after day after that, trying to understand how the in the world you didn't know.

2.she doesn't care what they say about her; because she finally realized they dont know shit.

3.Have you ever thought that if one thing hadn't happened, a whole set of things never would have either? Like dominoes in time, a single event kicked off an unstoppable series of changes that gained momentum and spun out of control, and nothing was ever the same again. Don't ever doubt that a mere second can change your life forever.

4.The real trouble with my sarcasm, is that half the time when people think I'm being sarcastic, I'm actually being quite sincere.

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1.i'm tired of screaming the same words over and over again, hoping you can hear me.

2.i've been ignoring all of my old feelings, and its wearing me down. i've gotten to the point where i don't even care about being strong. i'm falling apart all over the place.

3.i once said that i have the ability pick myself back up, but i don't even believe that anymore.

4.I was desperate to just start fresh,just be a face in the crowd,
where no one knew me.  Sometimes we just need that.

5.Your character is based on what you stand for.
Your reputation is based on what you fall for.

6.It's kind of like...the difference between putting your hand on your knee, and him putting his hand on your knee. When you touch your knee, you don't feel it, nothing happens, it's just there. But when he has his hand there, you feel everything. every move of his palm, every squeeze of his hand, and every brush of his finger. And you feel it right down to your toes and up to your neck everything in your body tingles, but it's the most wonderful thing ever. Every move he makes, makes a difference.

1.
Everything I did was to get away from being hurt.
I moved away from the pain in the wrong direction,
one step at a time until I was so far away I never knew how I got there.

2.
And I can't breathe, and I can't sleep, and i can never understand why you left me. But you've been there before, and I'll move on too. I 'll move on without you.

3.
I just can't stand to see you smile
From a picture frame
And all I wanna do is touch your face

4.
It was the first time I ever said that out loud, even thought it.
And it makes me quiet inside.
As if I found something that I didn't know I was looking for.

I'm still standing here.

5.
how's my life?
sure it's ruined at last
don't wanna look up one bit.

6.
"Sometimes I wander if god will ever forgive us for what we have done to eachother.
Then I look around and realize god left this place a long time ago".- blood diamond.

it's real hard to get a firm grip

7.
I'm needing you much more, I guess you never knew
And now everything, is gonna fall apart
I need you here, not just in my heart.

This time there is no warning.

8.
the realization is kicking in
i'm grasping you through thick and thin

9.
Yesterday was full of tears, knowing death has just been here
All was lost but not forgot, the pain controls my every thought

10.
i'm over it all
i'll get up after this fall
i'd step around this wall but
still my nights are sleepless
my mind it screeches
my thoughts they pull me up and away
just not feelin ok
still my state is restless
my heart can't stand this
my felony is branded
and my energy is stranded

11.
This wasn't how it's supposed to be. In Loving Memory.

12.
I believed she would see that I was sorry by my actions, if not my words.
I was waiting for the right time to speak.
When I felt we could talk openly without hurting eachother.

13.
I was surprised by the thought that feeling alive had nothing to do with happiness.

14.
And now everything, is gonna break again
If it just began, why did it have to end?

15.
i'm finally making progress
my heart will stand this
this restless state has ended
and i'm no longer stranded.

Sometimes the answers just aren't that simple.