this is beyond late, i'm sorry. hope it makes up for the delay. updates will be infrequent, i've got a week and 5 days until i move to new zealand, from england. it's a little hectic :)
How long i'll wait just to say goodbye.
Ten different ways to enjoy this night.
Can't do this anymore.
Won't feel you anymore.
How long i'll wait just to say goodbye.
You could never let me in.
Holding on until the end.
The time i waste just to say goodbye.
I'm bouncing off the walls again
And I'm looking like a fool again
Waking up on the bathroom floor
Pull myself back together just to fall once more

Mommy and Daddys got the best cocaine
Ritalin's never gonna feel the same
Twenty-four hours on an empty brain
I got my finger on the trigger and you're in my way
I turn off the lights so you can't see my eyes
My fingers are crossed while I promise the world To you
And I feel like I'm walking on air
Believing your lies when I thought that you cared

And I can tell that I'm falling in love with you
The bruises prove it's real
You're on pictures with smiles that convince
You can reach all the things
That you'd love but can't give to me
You chase all the things you can't have
And I am a diamond that's closed tight in your hand

All I can taste is champagne
When it hits the brain like cocaine
Spinning around and around
I can't get up without your help
I'm falling down
what's wrong?
i feel so alone again.
the look in your eyes sometimes...
pretending that it's all right.
make up and move on,
our ways never change
and i can get anyone that i want

and i would do anything if you could believe in me,
but girl-you play those tricks
and make a fool out of me.
that's the way it goes here.
i can't stand loving you anymore.
i try my best, but i'm back for more.
my heart beat stops every time you leave me.
Counting stars wishing I was okay.
Crashing down was my biggest mistake.
I never, ever meant to hurt you.
I only did what I had to.
Counting stars again.

I've got something up my sleeve that I don't want to show you
Cause everytime I bleed I make a fool of me
I've got shakey little fingers, that hold on to your grip
You've got wrapped around my world
So tight that I can't breathe
I'm suffocating
Picking up the pieces of a life you’ve broken
Stitching it together with the seams wide open
You keep crying, crying, crying
Till you cannot see at all
You keep crying, crying, crying
Till you cannot breathe at all
What do you do when you’re alone?
What do you do when no one’s home?
What do you do when you’re alone?
Out of control, Now on your own

And beauty lies in the ignorant
With the sound of selling out to the innocent
Like a pinprick right through the heart they have no chance
Like a freak in a brothel wanting cheap romance
She wore black round the eyes just to scare all the normal guys

Changing with the times this phase won't stay
And the clock strikes Y-E-S with complete distress
Phoney Lovely now cause she's my sick princess
I can tell she's the one
I never thought depression so much fun
Hello, can I say
That there's something wrong with this place
I've got time, just to waste
If you would be my new escape

So then I say can't find a lover
Well there's no other way of pulling me under
Cause it's gotta be fate if we're under the covers
Alone, we can dance
In your bedroom with no romance
I got time, just to waste
If you would be my new escape
So then you say won't be another
But you give it away cause you wanna discover
That it's gotta be fate if we're under the covers

I drive all day just to find myself
Away alone with no one else
I'm free under the California sun wasting away
Keep your head up
The colors are beautiful
When they say give up
Turn up your radio
All the sentimental memories you own
When they say grow up
It’s just like a funeral

The distance between the sheets
When chemicals compete
The friction of skin is deathly unbearable, yeah
The basics of war are near
The coward's in you and me
There's no turning back
We walked into this
Don't confuse it
Love
Wasted on the young
Detonate it, run
Never want to own a heart that breaks at all

There will be another update ASAP :)