Interests:‹ Music › % ‹ Art › % ‹ Sports › % ‹ Praising Him › % ‹ Finding Purpose › Expertise:`Being Me. `Procrastinating. `Failing math classes. `Sleeping and waking up late. `Getting my brother in trouble or worse yet the other way around. `Talking fast. Occupation:Student
guess i wasn't having a great couple of weeks. sorry to all those i ended up venting to :'
i think i'm finally getting back into "school mode" but it's a little too late to do anything about the first quarter, so i can't do anything about it now.
lesson learned: be humble, never assume it'll end up the way it did before.
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time to look ahead.
"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past." - Isaiah 43:18
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so i'm trying to take all the awesome advice everyone has given/is giving me i know i have a lot to do, with time constantly ticking away it's hard to not worry. but i know most of the pressure is all in my head.
goals:
clean up my desk & just stay organized
bring my gpa back up to at least a 3.5
study for once
organize all my college papers
make a chart of my college choices
write my real personal statement
create a standard portfolio
create my own portfolio
buy a dslr... [thought i'd throw that in there to give myself hope hahaa]
fill out college applications
write a whole crapload of essays
apply for scholarships
get accepted somewhere
graduate
yeah, there's more but i just can't remember them.
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i pretty much wasted today. definitely going to regret that on monday. at least it's going to be a short week.
the only year i ended up not going to parents night was the only year i started off poorly (academic-wise) & the only year where my teachers told my parents how horribly i was doing. now i'm wondering if i should've taken some easier classes this year.
i hate first quarters.
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greys anatomy, ugly betty, survivor, amazing race & the office are all back! super excited not that i have the free time to really watch any of them...
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my blogs from this point on will most likely be about me stressing, ranting, venting or worrying about academics, college or my future. ignore them if you want. lol.
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When our hope is hard to find And our faith is in decline We need a cause to stand behind - love
When life is cold, there is a promise you will never go without.
me (10:05:05 PM): or you're calling me a problem, lol.
judith (10:05:14 PM): lol
judith (10:05:26 PM): i had no idea that i even typed that in
judith (10:05:29 PM): thats so weird
she's even thinking about problems on the weekends. n3rdstatusforever.
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"official" freshmen welcome last saturday.
we're seniors at fellowship now. actually, we're seniors everywhere.
wow. weird? yeah.
band's back in session. drama is on hiatus. hostessing welcome this sunday.
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sf muni was not my friend this week. had to wait a long time for some buses...
amc vanness was super empty, but then it got somewhat filled when the movie started.
pineapple express.
ohman...
i don't even know how many times i seriously " l o l 'd " during the movie. crazy stuff.
THUGLYFE! &bfff? cause i want the middle piece.
kekeke.
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so i missed hillsong @ sj
music builds tour is going to be in sactown next weekend. majorly disappointed that i can't go with everyone since i'm still in hs :[ someday i'll get to see thirdday live...
also found out that the seniors won't be going to rock of ages this year ._.
have fun guys :'
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got some serious testing coming up sats & acts will be occupying my saturdays in the next two months.
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alright, no more fooling around. the time has come... uc/csu apps. are coming out next week.
my personal statement is a flop. generic to the max. i'm going to rewrite it forsure.
do i even have a life story?
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tried my best
to reach you
but it's harder
now that i'm trying
to carry
the weight of
this heavy world.
let's take
a step
back
to think,
to rearrange,
to reorganize,
to prioritize.
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tomorrow if a golden train came to take you away would you go or would you stay?
- english is just a normal class. - managed to fail 2 math tests in the past 4 weeks of school. - got a D on my ap psych frq + a C on the multiple choice. - so lost in physics, i'm going to flunk the test on friday. - econ is okay, ochi makes it bearable. doris: "he's such a spazzmonster" rotfl. - french is just ds;sdgew3hkju since i'm so worried about everything else.
& of course college apps, forms, processing & testing are all haunting me in the back of my mind.
looks like i'm headed in a good direction...
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feeling like such a failure in school right now there's just so much going on i have to finally admit that it's getting hard to balance it all. i need to refocus&concentrate. i just can't seem to do that though, it's already the 4th week of school & it's still hard adjusting.
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i really want to enjoy this last year of free education in high school but it's so hard with all the crazy deadlines i have to meet.
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youth rally '08 surrender went pretty well. awesome job guys. lots of hard work put into that.
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macy's teen passport fashion show on tuesday night lots of free stuff & food x] new pair of havianas (caroline!) :D & some other stuff.
headliner was definitely the jabbawockeez
the models seemed like plastic. when they came out later, some of them acted like plastic as well. most were friendly, but some weren't amiable at all. the clothes were "aite", nothing special.
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picture day today. horrible cropping. atleast it's not going in the yearbook. last year's was better --'
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walking in
an unknown direction.
hoping
to climb higher,
to see further,
to see clearly.
where do i start?
where will i end?
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never going back to okay, never going back to easy.
- water balloon drop from the roof of the school on tuesday group 3 ftw. haha. - we totally did not follow directions. - "nose-goes" wars. or in the words of marcus "nose-goes... first" - didn't get much of a view thanks to the fog, would've been cool though
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finally going to take school & senior portraits. ohboy.
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this week has gone by pretty quickly... it's definitely not what i planned it to be, but it's been interesting so far [:
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i took
a lot of
walks this week
i climbed
some heights, as well
can you spot my neighborhood?^
i guess
i'm going to
miss this school in the future...
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& a little plug for the weekend.
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somuchtodo.
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i tried to paint you a picture, but the colors were all wrong.
₊ Name: Courtney ₊ Age: dix-sept [17] ₊ Birthday: le vingt-quatre août (8/24)
₊ Loves:
Jesus.hercamera.music.
photoshop.drums&thebass + the band.myfellowship.
₊ School: GWHS ₊ Class: of 2009 :)
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chain that you are breaking,
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