Friday, March 07, 2008

• Alone.

  Currently Listening Coco By Colbie Caillat Magic see related

  Why do I feel alone? I really shouldn't. I exchange smiles with everyone, even people I don't know. I talk, am outgoing when I feel like it, and laugh constantly. So what's the problem? I feel like no one relates to me anymore. I'm different from everyone around me. And I know how everyone strives to be unique, but this unique-ness doesn't feel very positive. It feels more like a lonliness.

  So what if I'd rather read, then goof off in class? Is it really enough of a big deal to ask me why I read? Does it bother you that I read rather than talk, or even do some homework. Does it change your perspective of me? I normally don't care what other people think, but I don't like feeling like a slight outsider. All the friends I've lost over the years. What the hell happened? Did I scare them away?

  Is there something wrong with me?

  I hope I'm not so different that I've changed from who I was, to cause my friends to go away. I'm down to a few close ones, which I love so much, and of course my bestest friend. He keeps me sane when I get these thoughts and feelings in my head. I wish I could push these pessimistic thoughts away, but I always seem to need his help. So thanks batman =] (you should know who you are).

  Look there's another smile. But yet I still feel lonely, in a way, not extremely, but I do. Maybe it's because he's not here, and I wish he was. Maybe I'm too different from everyone, I really don't know. I wish I did.

  I think I need a hug... 

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