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seriously, this is how sick people can get. bye jake, bye heath. you're OUT.
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The Iris Effect
By Anne Archer, Kip Pardue, Agnes Bruckner, Mia Kirshner, Gregory Hlady, Devon Alan, Yuri Kolokolnikov, Viktor Sukhorukov, Michael Edward Rose, Scott Sturgeon, Tom Lasica, Alexey Simonov, Irek Hartowicz, Alexander Efimov, Alexy Panin, Yulia Kamanina, Svetlana Poukh, Lia Kuzmina, Mikhail Shokhin, Oleg Gordienko
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The Collision of Hearts  
 
 That's exactly what's in my stomach right now. Butterflies. And by this, I hope none of you are dumb enough to take it literally. I might be classified as insane --but not that much this time. To the ones with IQs below 40 (the so called severely mentally retarded), I am asserting a serious amount of excitement running within my body; let's do the enzyme talk-- adrenalin rush, is it not? I don't know. I hate science. The funny thing is, though, is that I don't even know why I'm excited. Hmm
Maybe the fact that I heard from my long lost neighbors --the fact that they're going to be in Bangkok, spending christmas and new year with us after ten whole years of separation completely thrilled me; knocking me head over heels. I miss Matt and Amberly... the Potters, who lived two houses away from us down Schooner Ridge. Hey, and all the crying... and I thought I'd never see them again. My life DOES walk in a circle after all. I just hope this one won't turn awkward. I pray for the warmth I had ten years ago. Diario, rogaría para que nuestros corazones choquen una vez más. Se han contestado mis rezos.   
EDIT: 8th Oct Ask not why, for I feel like it. THE ROAD I'M ON - 3 DOORS DOWN She said life’s a lot to think about sometimes
When you’re living in between the lines
And all the stars are sparkling, shine everyday
He said life’s so hard to move in sometimes
When it feels like I’m in the line
And no one even cares to ask me why I feel this way
And I know you feel helpless now, and I know you feel, hold on
That’s the same road, the same road that I’m on, yeah
He said life’s a lot to think about sometimes
When you keep it on between the lines
And everything I want and I want to find one of these days
But what you thought was real in life
Oh, it somehow steer you wrong
And now you just keep trying and trying to find out where you belong
And I know you feel helpless now, and I know you feel, hold on
That’s the same road, the same road that I’m on
What you thought was real in life, somehow steer you wrong
And now you just keep trying and trying to find where you belong
I know you feel helpless now, I know you feel, hold on
That’s the same, the same road that I’m on
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| I miss these timesone of the best months in my life: MARCH 2006 
a day at sedona pool, continuously humming to "raindrops keep falling..."
that was soooo us.
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| The Lost, The Forgotten Why do people say they're in recovery, when even ones above know that no matter how hard you try to put make up on it, scrub it away or hide it in sleeves, you can't heal real wounds. They just don't go away. The people mentioned are just stupid in silly to say they're suffering... and the next day, they're laughing it off. I guess they just experienced a scratch.
For years and years, the cuts that scar my heart grow deeper --the dagger of truths, lies and betrayal laid a curse upon me--eventually becoming a parasite; my heart becomes the unwilling host of the dagger's smirk of triumph.
As I was laid to rest in a pitch-black coffin, I began to wonder if I will ever see the vivid light of the sun again in my lifetime; the ray of light that peers in through my bedroom window, whispering gently to me everymorning: "Wake up now, Immy. It's time". The ones above are probably hinting to me now that I will never wake up again. Rescue me. | | |
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I'll Always Know What You Did Last Summer
By Brooke Nevin, David Paetkau, Torrey DeVitto, Ben Easter, Seth Packard, K.C. Clyde, Clayton Taylor, Michael Flynn, Britt Leary, Star LaPoint, Junior Richard, Levy Whitlock, Chad Chiniquey, Manny Slack, James Jamison, Brett Yoder, Don Shanks, Sally Ann Brooks, Daniel Drysdale, Eliza Wren
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Attempts to be Tranquil It took me some more pounds lost to know what "busy" and "caught up with work" really means. "Oh my god, you look like you just got released from one of those juvenile kids' center shit" and "fresh outta prison?" were what I've been hearing from other faces lately. I came home after sunset everyday, stared at myself in the mirror and this is what I saw: a worn out stranger with uneven blots on her face; cheeks taking the shape of her cheekbones --or as us Thais say... "mod sa paab". All the sports, drama club, student council work etc. have been driving me nuts, causing me to lose the pounds unintentionally. Worse yet, the 'rents are fighting on a daily basis back home now, and the thing is they'd sometimes drag me in it, too. If this took place last year or so, I would have probably stormed out of the house and start slitting my wrist or something. But hey, I grew up, I'm in love and I'm learning. I'm pulling through =). | | |
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