Tuesday, September 27, 2005

• I had been falling in love with a christian guy

  Who appeared in my life like a surprise

  I honestly felt content and satisfied

  With such an incredibly perfect life

  In the presence of Jesus Christ

  Who gives us strength and wisdom all the time

   

  We did keep lots of promises in mind

  Thinking that we could be able to fulfil them in our lifetime

  'Cause our trust inbetween could never be denied

  Being the greatest parents who gonna coach a bball team with our 10 children inside

  Was always the dream that we never put aside

   

  However problems and tribulations kept challenging us in times

  You were stressed out and wanted to be alone sometimes

  I respected you but you claimed that I didn't keep you in mind

  Who understood those complex feelings hidden inside

  Who cared how I missed you until I cried

   

  On a supposedly special day after times went by

  You were telling me that u wanna give up without even a try

  I doubted what true love is defined

  Especially in such a loyal christian's mind

   

  I knew I really sucked in being a good girlfriend in your eyes

  I did hate myself for not even reaching your standard line

  But I thought you would forgive and appreciate if I really tried

  And as long as we had the heart to work out then things would be fine

  Since nobody and no relationship is perfect in real life

  That's what you always reminded me of but you disappoined me in times

   

  I'd glad that you had family and friends so that you were fine

  Whereas I was stuck since I just came here for a short period of time

  With nobody here and with no life

  I wonder why

  You could then turn to someone else and enjoyed your new life

  Without going through a seriously hard time like mine

   

  Words like "Perhaps my love for you is just not enough."told me why

  Neither together will be forever nor you'll be right there by my side

  Regarding your past and experiences made me realize

  In fact it didn't even matter how hard I tried

  As you were just letting me go by simply a "goodbye"

   

  I'm writing this not 'cause I expect anyone to sympathize

  I'm just trying to remind myself of not living again in a lie

   

  Love is not just a blind try

  If you are not even standby

  Please don't expect everything too high

   

  Yob

  Sept 26 05'

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